the soft underbelly, the undertow
people often mistake pride for arrogance. i think it's good to have pride in things you're capable of. you don't necesarily have to think you're better than anyone else, but you should have respect for your own work. i often feel a little more empty when seeing people be really really good at something, especially something they enjoy so well. many, or even most, of the music in some underground communities i am heavily into are made by extremely talented teenagers. seeing these artists know what they want to do with their lives so young, along with being insanely good at what they like to do, i cant help but feel envious. i spend a lot of days reminding myself things will change one day, but i'm sometimes worried i'll never find my thing. it hurts even more when someone is good at something they don't enjoy. my younger brother has been playing drums from a young age, and was very good at it. last year, he quit lessons and then stopped playing alltogether. perhaps he just didn't like it anymore.